TO MY CHILDREN AND SISTER

20 years of no communication is just too long. Now with both of my Parents gone I have no family to share sorrows and joys around the Holidays and through out the year. This leaves me sad when I am with friends celebrating Christmas with their families especially when asked if I have family and I have to either say no or explain what I did to ruin my relationship to the family I did have. I take all the blame. Except for My hypomamic diagnosis of being Bi-Polar in 2001 that lead to the return of addiction and embezelling money from family bank accounts to feed my addiction and more. But I have changed. I served nearly 3 years in prison 2013 - 16 for DWI's and when I got out I committed myself to caring for my Dad and working hard to stay clean and sober which I am today. I live a simple life in NH. I work a simple job 5 days a week as a maintenance technician in the apartment complex I reside in then at night I wash dishes at a local restaurant. I still bicycle year round and still volunteer to help at local charities to help those less fortunate. This New Year would you please consider rekindling some type of relationship with your Father and Brother. While I am healthy and physically fit - I don't feel that I deserve to die alone in 30 years +-. Jeffrey A. Zerilli 2 Meadowbrook Village Apt 8 West Lebanon, NH 03784 607-227-7455 zerillijaz@gmail.com